I am sad to say that I have let myself get back up to a higher weight than ever. I had returned to my previous high weight THEN remember that I quit smoking (November), or at least that’s what will get the blame for these last 20 pounds.
Why does it matter? Well there are several reasons. I know there are people who feel good about themselves no matter what their size, and I wish I were one, but I’m not. I don’t look or feel good in my clothes. I don’t feel healthy – short breath, aching knees and ankles, high bp and cholesterol (meds have affected liver already). It matters.
For the last month or two I’ve been contemplating: how am I going to lose this weight? ALL the good diet habits are gone, so begin again. A few things have changed since I weighed less. Age of course. Since I quit smoking, coffee does not taste as good (except those sweet, milky drinks), and in the last couple of weeks I’ve decided to not use/drink artificial sweeteners. Those have been a huge source of replacements in the past, so we’ll have to see if I can continue this ban.
I went to the doctor, and he says if I don’t want to count calories/grams, until we get rolling JUST (ha) stick to NO fried anything, NO red meat, NO sweet treats. Have three meals with protein to curb appetite, chicken and fish, and 30 minutes 5 days a week of aerobic exercise, to be more successful “find something you can do in your home. He also said, “we are not going to count to a weight or number of pounds – we are going for a size.” OK, but you and I both know that I’ll be watching that scale! So, I’m going for a size 12 at 5'4". I think that's realistic - I’ve been there, I know I can do it, and that is where I can begin to feel good about myself. How many pounds does that mean? Well, I’m not positive, but at least 30, so we’ll START with that.
I know a few of you who drop by to visit have also gone through this journey, and I’ve watched your success. If anyone wants to join in, please feel welcome!
So, this morning I ate cereal with skim milk. I don’t care for breakfast, and haven’t eaten it in ages, but I will get back into the habit.
Tomorrow –Sunday is DSs birthday – my only will be 29. I will allow myself to eat for this special occasion, and really get with the program beginning Monday.
We went to the movie yesterday (a tradition around birthday time) to see Inception. Wow – put on your thinking cap and go to the bathroom first because you won’t want to miss a second, and enjoy. It was great. I really want to go again to realize all I missed. In the movie there was a thunderstorm, and it kept going and going, then I realized it was outside- rain pounding the roof with cracking of lightning and thunder!
Hope there was a bit of rain in your part of the world if you need it. Thanks for dropping by, and I’d love to hear your thoughts today!